I Believe

So this is pretty much my journal.  And I have a tradition on writing my testimony down in my journal after I have finished The Book of Mormon.  Well I've finished.  It's been so long since I finished it the last time I don't remember what number this is.  I think it's five or six, like I said, it's been a while.  It's been a while since I've bore my testimony.  I haven't lost my testimony I've just been experiencing my own round of the pride cycle.  You know when things are good and you start to let things slide and you miss a day or two of reading and praying.  You remember and you try to get back but it's not long before things get busy and crazy again.  Then you start to doggy paddle thinking that's the only way to stay afloat, not noticing that there is a floating life saver right behind you.  This was me.  I was lost...  But now I'm found.  I know that's pretty corny but it's the truth.  I made a deal with the Savior.  If I would grab that life saver and start reading the scriptures again then he would help me.  I love making "deals" with my Savior when I actually keep my end, because he ALWAYS keeps his end.  I know I've writen about my struggles before so I wont go into that more.  But these trials have really helped me get closer to my Father in Heaven and His Son.  I am so grateful for His plan that I sometimes have such a hard time understanding but that I should trust in none the less.  I know that the Chruch of Jesus Christ is the true church and that God the Father is over it.  I know that He sent His Son to this earth to make it so that He could save man kind.  So that He can save me.  I know that He knows me and is mindful of me and loves me.  I know that Christ lives still and that He will come again.  I know that He restored His gospel to Joseph Smith Jr.  I know that He and the Father appeared to Joseph Smith when he was just a boy.  I know that Joseph translated the Book of Mormon and I know that this book speaks the word of God.  I know that Thomas S. Monson speaks the word of God for us today.  I love this gospel.  I love my Savior.  I love following his commandments, even though sometimes I'm not good at it.  I love my family and I love knowing that if I follow that commandments I can live with them forever.  I love being a mother and look forward to teaching my Scott and future children of our Saviors love for us.  I love the joy that this gospel brings me and my family.  I'm grateful for the knowledge that I have.  Thank you to everyone that has helped me and influenced my testimony.  I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.