LOVE

Sometimes, when I stop and think about it, I am over come by the love I have for Scott. I've always wanted to be a mother. But I don't remember why. I love my mom and have always had babies and children around so maybe that's why. But I know I have never had this type of love for anything or anyone until Scott. I mean I love my Mark and when it was just him and me I couldn't imagine loving anything more. But then I found out I was pregnant and slowly this love developed inside of me that has grown to not only engulf me but has grown so big it is outside of me. He has become my life, my very reason for existence. His wishes are my greatest wishes, his fears are my worst fears, he is in my every thought, my entire world.
He is such a perfect child. He shows his love for Mark and I in so many ways and I can't help but hug and squeeze him and kiss him at any and every chance I get. Sometimes these moments just hit me like a ton of bricks and I feel moved to shout it from the mountain tops or in this blog.


If I had known while growing up how much my mom loved me I probably would have been better to her. A mothers love, I feel, truly is the most powerful love out there and I feel sorry for Mark and all men that they can't feel as I do.


But I am so grateful for the love that Mark does have for our son. I'm so grateful for all the ways he shows Scott that love. I'm so grateful for a Heavenly Father who created love in all its forms and blessed me with the ability to feel it. I love Him for it.
I love my family so much.

So blessed.