I've realized that I've written a few posts to my dad but not too many about or for my mom.
I love my mom dearly.
She has become one of my great friends and means more to me with every passing year.
She has sacrificed so much for her family.
She has built her whole life around being a mother.
Being one for the first time this year I have gained a completely new perspective on mothers and a new respect for them, mine especially.
There are so many stories and examples of the amazing feats my mom took to become the super mom she has become today but so many of them are too personal, too sacred to share here.
I will share one store that has come to mean so much to me.
I was living in Logan going to USU and dealing with stupid college drama.
She was going to have surgery to get her thyroid removed the next day and she hadn't said anything to me about it before then.
She and I talked almost everyday and I felt like my mom was probably become my closest friend yet she had not told me about this surgery till the day before.
I was so offended that she wouldn't tell me this.
She hadn't told me that they had found traces of cancer or what could have become cancer in her thyroid and that it had to be removed.
I became so worried about her.
For the first time I started thinking about life without my mom and I couldn't do it.
It's so silly and selfish of me but I was constantly calling during her recovery to make sure she was ok and to remind her how mad I was at her for not telling me that soon she realized that I was the one who needed comfort.
I remember talking to her on the phone for at least an hour and just crying.
She did the majority of the talking; telling how I would be ok if something were to go wrong and telling me how proud she was of me and the woman I was becoming.
I felt that I was such a disappointment to her my whole life.
I have major middle child syndrome, I only saw my mom dotting on all my brothers and sisters and ignored any attention she gave to me.
She told me of all my wonderful qualities I have and all the ways I was like her (I never thought I would ever be as great as she was).
She told me all the things that I should have been hearing my whole life but was always to deaf to hear because of my insecurities.
She made me feel wonderful and precious the only way a mother knows how to do.
She has taught me so much about how to be a mother but out of all those things I want to remember this the most.
I want to make sure that my children know and realize how amazing they are and how amazing they can be.
I want my mother to know that I think she is amazing.
After having Scott I finally know just how much my mom loves me.
I see now why she nagged me to be better and to try harder.
Thank you Mom for never spoiling me rotten or letting me do everything that I wanted to do.
You never lost sight of who I am and who I need to be and where I need to go.
I can keep going and going and going but I wont.
I just want to end with this:
"I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living (longer really)
My mommy you'll be"
I love my mom dearly.
She has become one of my great friends and means more to me with every passing year.
She has sacrificed so much for her family.
She has built her whole life around being a mother.
Being one for the first time this year I have gained a completely new perspective on mothers and a new respect for them, mine especially.
There are so many stories and examples of the amazing feats my mom took to become the super mom she has become today but so many of them are too personal, too sacred to share here.
I will share one store that has come to mean so much to me.
I was living in Logan going to USU and dealing with stupid college drama.
She was going to have surgery to get her thyroid removed the next day and she hadn't said anything to me about it before then.
She and I talked almost everyday and I felt like my mom was probably become my closest friend yet she had not told me about this surgery till the day before.
I was so offended that she wouldn't tell me this.
She hadn't told me that they had found traces of cancer or what could have become cancer in her thyroid and that it had to be removed.
I became so worried about her.
For the first time I started thinking about life without my mom and I couldn't do it.
It's so silly and selfish of me but I was constantly calling during her recovery to make sure she was ok and to remind her how mad I was at her for not telling me that soon she realized that I was the one who needed comfort.
I remember talking to her on the phone for at least an hour and just crying.
She did the majority of the talking; telling how I would be ok if something were to go wrong and telling me how proud she was of me and the woman I was becoming.
I felt that I was such a disappointment to her my whole life.
I have major middle child syndrome, I only saw my mom dotting on all my brothers and sisters and ignored any attention she gave to me.
She told me of all my wonderful qualities I have and all the ways I was like her (I never thought I would ever be as great as she was).
She told me all the things that I should have been hearing my whole life but was always to deaf to hear because of my insecurities.
She made me feel wonderful and precious the only way a mother knows how to do.
She has taught me so much about how to be a mother but out of all those things I want to remember this the most.
I want to make sure that my children know and realize how amazing they are and how amazing they can be.
I want my mother to know that I think she is amazing.
After having Scott I finally know just how much my mom loves me.
I see now why she nagged me to be better and to try harder.
Thank you Mom for never spoiling me rotten or letting me do everything that I wanted to do.
You never lost sight of who I am and who I need to be and where I need to go.
I can keep going and going and going but I wont.
I just want to end with this:
"I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living (longer really)
My mommy you'll be"
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